not entirely fun, guys. I NEED HELP. :c

Gah. I feel so guilty. But I really have to say this. I think I'm not having fun anymore.
I mean, I don't blame this site. Sometimes, I blame myself and how insane I am.
As for some, I already said this problem of mine. That I'm having a hard time with myself.
Come to think of it, I dislike the idea that I'm sorta missing things in life.
More important things. Like doing the things I love the most. Writing, drawing, expressing myself, just thru the arts.
Things like that. Things that make me happier. With friends and people I love.
It's like finding myself, you know. And getting stuff handled and stable with my RL buddies.
I think I'm missing out special moments and rare ones.
I'm young, I'm free, I easily get sensitive and confused. And here I am.
More often that not, I hate myself.
I hate that no matter how hard I try, I still don't fit in.
I still don't fit in in these different worlds. I've tried so many.
This and that. But how I struggle, nothing comes out. It's getting more and more difficult when it comes to dealing with myself.
I need to catch up with school, my friends - have more fun times and live the easy life with no burden, especially my family. And moreover, to myself. I think I need to change my life.
Not all of it, but to live more freely. Without second guesses and disturbances.
I know I'm hell being dramatic, but I had to admit for one. Issues.
Should I find my true path of life? I've been like this for six months since I started here.
With ups and downs. Misunderstandings with my own being.
I'm an ambitious girl. I love things that people don't always understand.
And sometimes, I think about starting big. Like what I do for my passions.
I'm doing this for the better of my life, guys.
And I am dead confused. I don't know whether I should quit hiding myself and accept that I should face reality.
But whatever comes out of this situation, I promise I'll keep in touch. If you'd like.
I need help. I really do. I need answers. Please. These things sort of turns out to be something that pulls me down from revealing myself. All of it that I'm keeping inside. Xl

Love... I have trouble with this too. I do: I don't feel like I fit in sometimes (thanks to all this thirteen-year-old bullshit hormone crap) both here and in real life, but you have to make the best of it. PM me, love. I understand. c:

Eye, I just want to say you are so not alone in this; every teenager feels exactly the same at some point in their life. I'm nearly 17 and I still feel confused and lost about whatever I do. It's like we are all trying to fit in so hard that sometimes we lose track of who we are. And it's completely natural that you'd feel like this; there is absolutely no need for you to feel guilty about this. And no matter what people say, continue to dream big(:

If you ever want to talk, I'm here for you as well^^ *big huggles*<33

Girl, I am thirteen and I feel like every.single.moment.of.my.life. My ambitions... are way to high for my own damn good. I am glad that you posted this, so I can help.

PM/Owl me when you want. Just talk, and talk till you can't. Maybe try writing things down. I think it is just being part of a Teenager, you know you are growning and expectations are increased. You want to feel grown up, but you know you are not done yet.

*Huggles Eye*