by Karmzy Sat Jun 09, 2012 4:59 pm
Karma had almost started to grin when her attention was pulled to Geoffrey. The butler was a kind man - with or without Nolan - and had never shown her the disrespect she was used to from authority figures. She had spent a bit of time with the man, when studying or researching in Nolan's library, so she could tell that whatever happened next... well... He didn't approve of.
It only made her more determined. The man was one of the only people to ever tell her that he was proud of her, the only one to say that she would become something. Everyone else usually just assumed...
Her attention went to Nolan at the cough, before she followed his gaze to the center of the field. Her eyes stared incomprehensibly at the man standing there, her entire body tensing. What- How did- Things weren't connecting in her mind. The part of her, faded and shrunken over time, that had held onto the belief that he was still alive wasn't acting as such. Pain slammed into her, waves and waves of it, the sorrow she hadn't let herself feel when Arsen had told her he'd killed him, the anger at the boy she was now head over heels in love with... it all came flooding back into her, crashing into her usually strong walls of emotional control and ripping through them like they were tissue paper.
She stood there for an immeasurable amount of time, just staring at the middle of the field, her system slowly shutting down and rebooting itself, trying to find a way to cope with all the emotions blindsiding her. Her jaw clenched and unclenched, and she had absolutely no idea what to do with herself. She wanted- she wanted to run to him, to throw her arms around him and never let go. This man had been the only father figure she'd ever had, and Arsen had taken him from her. The rampant betrayal she'd never felt before, not awake at least, took dominance over all the other emotions present, swirling around her darkly. Animalistic hatred for the boy came next, too strong to be controlled by any emotion as feeble as love. Cobalt had nearly trained the love out of her, told her that if she had ever started to feel something that might be love, he would have to kill her if she held it in. Love was a weakness in an Assassin, let alone a Wetboy.
"That's good, he was useless anyway, I could protect you better than he could and I'm less than half his age." He smiled. "I know exactly where he is cause he's where I left him last... as a pile of ash." Arsen's laughter echoed in her head, and a curtain of red covered her vision, hatred and anger so strong she had to fight the urge to turn and hunt down the boy himself. She was in love with him! The boy who'd killed her only father! What was wrong with her?!
Slowly, painfully, she forced herself to think of something else. Arsen. She didn't hate him. She couldn't. Not after all they'd been through.
A full range of memories flew through her next. Just Arsen. The crimson color of his eyes, the way he adjusted his body heat to make her more comfortable when she was scared, how safe she felt whenever his arms were wrapped around him. The way his eyes lit up the smallest bit whenever he set something on fire, the way he laughed whenever she made a joke, the protective growl that rumbled up from his chest whenever she showed the slightest interest in any boy - or any boy showed an interest in her. Closing her eyes and taking a deep breath through her nose, Karma calmed herself down almost easily.
When she opened her eyes again, looking up at Cobalt, then Nolan, she felt nothing but slight disdain, and maybe a bit of sadness.
"Life is empty." She repeated softly, hearing the echo of her younger self repeating it with her. How she missed the sweet, lonely little girl she used to be. "When we take it, we take nothing of value." This was her creed. It had been once, and perhaps it would be again.
She made no move to go toward the man in the center of the clearing, instead looking up at Nolan, waiting for a direct order, her own creed spinning in her head.
All men must serve. All men must die.
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